Potty training is going really well. We had a couple of accidents in the first two days and then days three and four were completely dry! Yesterday we had an accident but I don’t understand why. I think it was timing on my part and laziness on Meghan’s part but she didn’t manage to go in public toilets before ballet yesterday which I think is a big achievement after the fiasco I had at pre-school with her. I took her to the toilets at pre-school before the day started and I ended up being sat with her for thirty minutes with her not doing anything and her being really upset about everyone trying to come in all the time and I had to leave her crying and felt horrible. She was alright though and managed to hold herself until she got home because she just didn’t want to go at pre-school. Hopefully we will have more luck on Tuesday. I was supposed to be getting her to wear knickers at bedtimes as of Monday but I’m not confident enough with that yet. She’s using the toilet but she’s still nervous with it and keeps holding herself in. Her nappy is still full in the mornings too so I might buy one more pack of nappies to do just for bedtimes until I know she can do it.
I’m spending a lot of time online at the moment, not doing anything in particular. On top of that, I’m finding myself struggling to not eat anything in the evenings. Weekends are always the hardest as my stress levels go up loads. Last night I found myself craving anything and everything – again – and I gave in and let myself have a bar of chocolate. I started listing things on ebay and an hour later I realised that I hadn’t even wanted anything to eat because I’d been busy. The rest of the night I was craving like mad and gave in again and definitely went over my daily calorie allowance. I need to just do the things I need to do online and get off. Me being sat here doing nothing and being bored is contributing to me overeating in the evenings. I have been wanting to pick up my knitting again for months and months but just never have. Tonight I’m going to go online for a maximum of an hour and then get off and sit in front of the TV watching the copious amounts of TV shows I have recorded – Without A Trace, FlashForward, Dollhouse, Hung and some Channel 4 Dispatches – and knit Emelye’s scarf that I started this time last year. I have a few Christmas projects that I would like to complete so I want to get this scarf finished first so I can do the rest.
This may start being a daily occurrence if its going to help me stop overeating. Its not just the weekends, its just that I seem to have more self control in the week days. I’m definitely not as stressed in the week though so the house is a lot quieter.
I do want to start blogging more by the way but I’m not sure whether I want to blog here any more. I’m trying to work things out on my own but I will carry on blogging here until I make the decision.